need a sunrise

What does it mean to know a person? To know their thought process, to understand why they breathe, to realize what it is exactly that allows them to get out of bed each day and face the world. To know their fears just as well as you know their dreams. To know why they dream as they do, and what it is that is holding them back from chasing that dream. To know what makes them tick, to truly walk that mile in their shoes.

We simply cannot ever really know another person. We barely even know ourselves. Sometimes we do things that catch us off guard and leave us breathless with wonder. We do things we didn't realize we were capable of, just as we fail at things we thought we could do with ease.

Is there anyone that can understand? What do you do when you lose feeling? What do I do when I can't sleep? What do I really do? You might think that I write but that's not actually what this is. It is so much more, and so much less. I am free. It's like driving down a long stretch of road where there are no other cars for miles and somewhere deep down you know you can drive as fast as you dare but something holds you back. What holds us back?

I am held back because I can't just accept anything. I can't take something and simply allow it to be. I need to know why and how and when it's going to change. I need to know the specifics when they don't exist. Where does this leave me?

Look deep inside yourself. Be truthful, don't try to hide from the only person who will ever have a chance at knowing you.

It leaves me just like you.

"You don't know me, and you don't even care. You don't know me, you don't wear my chains."